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today my fisrt 55K cycling..with geng2 dari team ombak shah alam, bersama triathlete; bro zaly, bro zaki, bro jay dan sifu amran..

kayuhan santai..but at some point they push around 45km/h...fuuuhh..nk tecabut lutut aku ni mengejor..basikal ni speed 9 je..ahaha....takpe2 yang penting... today was great traininig for me..maintain speed around 30km/h..boleh la kot nk follow.

need more time to training cycling...

just now..i'm thinking about MOMENTUM

when u cycling, u need a momentum to push..

compare to my LIFE??? yes..its give me something to think...

aku seorang yg memerlukan momentum utk kehadapan...
when cycling..people like to draft...drafting means follow behind others...reason?? more aero..potong angin..kurang penat..dapat lebih momentum..work less...easy to maintain your speed..
sometimes, when i do something in my life...
everything is like an experiment..
life is a learning process..
sport life is something really related to your life...
the passion..the determination...
how you handle it..
and you try to find the solutions...

what i can see when i cycling....??

if you want to push..u really need momentum..kadang2 kita akan terkebelakang apabila momentum kita tidak sama dengan cyclist dihadapan....when they push you..then its easy to you to push your self..

NOW i realize something...


i really need momentum in my life now...in what ever im doing, i really need someone to push me...push me to moving forward..i can't walk alone..
yes..dats me...what i can see...what i can feel rite now......

MOMENTUM

i like a cyclist on his bike...
cyclist in front of me is my supporter...
when i follow behind them....
its easy to me to follow the speed...
push beyond my limit...
more speed..more momentum..
easy to maintain my performance....
less work...
and
success in the ride...??


SO, in my real life..
when i follow someone really have passion with me...
like art or sport...
who can support me...
its easy to me to push beyond my limit...
more momentum..
more speed to done my work...
easy to maintain my work performance...
and success in my work...

but who is the "supporter" in my real life?
i don't really have it rite now...
i'm down in my real life...
i really need someone who really can support me...
give me some motivation...
give me momentum,
so i can push what i need to do beyond my limits..
to make me success in my study...

I'M DOWN NOW...

MUM,
i really miss you rite now...
i really need the past momentum you gives me...
i learn everything about arts from you,

dulu arwah mak penah cakap,,
mase die tgk artwork aku...
bakat ko ni dari mak dgn abah...
bukan semua anak2 ade..

yes..
i'm crying rite now...
everything not easy to handle this feelings....

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oowh..baru aku perasan..

skrang dah ramai jugak runner2 yang ade blog...tadi terbuka pulak hati nk melawat blog2 kaki-kaki lari ni..

kebanyakkan nye sume mcm pelari tegar..hahaha..yang lari jarak2 ultraman ni...memang salutela dgn korang sume...aku ni blom smpai tahap tu lagi...

dulu2 mmg banyak mase nk mengupdate blog dan berkenal-kenalan dengan kawan2 baru di blog..tapi sekarang ni agak kemalasan dan tak berapa sempat...takde lagi dlm jadual harian aku nk jadi BlogWalking...aku pon pelik...mane pegi mase2 aku yg dulu..dulu rajin nk mentelaah blog2 runner ni..tapi sekarang ni susah sket..mungkin sebab skarang rajin bukak MukaBuku je kot...ooowh...itu benar.. alasan yg sangat baik..ehehehe

kenangan Mizuno Wave Run 2008

byk lagi target yang tak kesampaian..postpone punye postpone smpai arini pon tak masuk2 full marathon lagi..target nk masuk SC singapore marathon 2010..disebabkan penuh terlalu awal terpaksa la aku ubah perancangan tahun 2010 ni...geng2 uitm runners club (URC) yang seangkatan dengan aku menceburi bidang pelarian ni pon ramai yang dah lari 30K..42K...aku paling jauh pon 25K je penah masuk...takpe..belom ade rezeki kot..ahaha (alasan)..yang kat MSU ni pon ade yg dah masuk full marathon..memang tercabar la jugak..hahha..tapi ape kan daya..kuderat aku yg kurus-mulus ni tak macam diorng... :p

bersama 1st generation URC 2008

masing2 punya target..so aku pon ade target aku...2 tahun..???....terlalu awal utk menempuh jarak larian yang berpuluh2 batu tu...aku masih dlm proses pembelajaran...lagi pon korang tau jelakan....orang cakap baya2 aku ni berjiwa muda (bukan jiwang)....bile running tu pk nak merempit je....ahaha....tu pon satu masalah jugak...tak reti nk sabar....pantang tgk org lain laju merempit mula la nak bagi siCKnel kanan nk memotong...tak sabO2....so bawak2 kan lah bersabar...jangan di ikutkan hati tu sangat....nanti injured balik diri sendiri jugak yang padan muke..kehkehkeh...jalan terbaik?

"Follow your TARGET and FOCUS on it..!"
-edan syah-


AKHIR KATA...kepada runner2 yang ade blog silalah berkenal-kenalkan diri ok!

ni blog-blog yang aku sempat singgah tadi...


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thanks

waduh3.. event "LelakiHebat" dah semakin hampir...ape pon tak ready lagi..orang lain sibok training pagi petang siang malam...

dup..dap..dup..dap... dup..dap..dup..dap... dup..dap..dup..dap...
(heartrate naik secara tiba2 bile teringatkan powerman..risau2)



this is what i'm thinking about my ART life..

"When your artwork or design look weird for you,
its mean you never do it with your soul"
-edan syah-

2005

one of my best work (kalau nk tengok artwork ni boleh pegi kat central market.aku display kat my uncle punya kedai kat sana


When i do an artwork or design; it's not only about finished my assignment,
it's about my soul.
it's not easy for me to do what i need to do casually.
sometime i'm paranoid about what i'm doing.
Perfectionist?
some of my friend who knows me will said like that...
and i think..it's true.

sometime,
i need more time from others,
i need to do something different,
i need a lots of creativity,
i need push my creativity beyond the limit,
and at the end?
i'm tired and do nothing...


kadang-kadang apa yang kita buat itu sangat berharga buat diri kita,
tetapi tidak pada orang lain yang tidak memahaminya.

Melihat kerja-kerja yang aku telah buat bertahun lalu
sememangnya sangat memuaskan hati sendiri
kerana
aku tahu harga disebalik kerja tesebut.

Orang lain tidak melihat kepayahan semasa
kita melakukan kerja tersebut.
Tetapi hanya melihat luarannya sahaja
sama ada cantik atau tidak.

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LIFE
is also like an
ARTWORK,
it have their own
values.

Who give the values?
the artist or Ourself

Because of that?
it's PRICELESS

-edan syah-

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ape aku merepek ni?
haha..
jiwa kacau lagi...

sebab ape?

sebab mengikut ramalan di dalam diri,
aku rasakan pointer aku seperti akan jatuh semester ini..

selalunya apa yang aku rasakan mengenai diri aku,
ia benar-benar akan berlaku...
itulah aku...

T.I.D.A.K!!
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"You Must First Love Yourself"

I'm thinking something, looking at my friends facebook. Their story or post always about love?

Sometime when we fall in love, what your feeling? you will say....

"Ooooowh..Dunia ini bagai aku yang punya..ahaha!" blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com(muka jahat)

but when you are alone and sad, what in your mind??

Nevermind, what i'm always thinking rite now is

"Just LOVE Yourself First. Then you will find your true LOVE"blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

Owhh..i find something and really excited to share.. you must read this...! This is what i'm thinking rite now..just like this.. blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

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Why You Must First Love Yourself

Everyone has heard that you have to love yourself before someone else can love you. The reason for this is simple - our ideal partner is a reflection of us.

We attract people that are like us. Not just in terms of romantic, sexual/physical attraction. We attract them metaphysically - these people tend to turn up in our lives.

Each of us has a unique belief system, a way of seeing the world that is slightly different to everyone else's. It's almost like our ego has a fingerprint. What turns us on, what turns us off. What we feel is important.

Our political preferences, tastes in food and music, and so on, all arise out of this belief system. Our particular thoughts and feelings resonate with different aspects of the world around us. If your thoughts are dark, you like heavy metal. If your thoughts are happy, you like cheesey music. We like certain foods, like for example, coffee, because of the way they make us feel.

The types of people that come into our lives are affected by our beliefs. We meet people who have made the same sorts of choices we make. Where to live, which bar to go to, which supermarket to shop at. All these choices reflect our values and our way of being from day to day, minute to minute.

When you enter a seminar or lecture theatre, where do you sit? On the front row where you can ask questions or the back where you can fall asleep without being noticed? Our personality is reflected in the places we turn up... and so we end up being surrounded by people who are the same way.

Romantic compatibility has a lot to do with this. Why do we always ask our love interest what sort of music they like? We want to know they are on our wavelength. We want to know they are drawn to the same emotional experience, so we can trust that they will understand us.

It seems like this is easily faked. All you have to do is listen to someone talk passionately and agree with them. Find something from your own experience that is similar emotionally and share it. But this can be hard work. It's much easier if your passions really are similar emotionally. That way, things just happen.

The problem comes when you are romantically attracted to people who are not on your wavelength. This means, people who are not right for you, but who have something that you respect, or admire, or just desire. You want to be with the other person to feel good about yourself, to fill some hole inside you or to change what other people think about you. These relationships are doomed to failure from the start, because of the amount of energy it takes to maintain them.

Do you like yourself? Would you be attracted to someone who was the opposite sex version of you? Are the people you are attracted to your mirror in terms of life philosophy, success, social hierarchy?

The right person for you has similar political and religious views. Their life philosophy, work ethic, wit matches yours perfectly. There are certain adjustments to make across the genders, for example power in men roughly equates to looks in women. But the stress in the relationship is directly proportional to your differences. A certain amount of stress is healthy and keeps things interesting, but only up to a certain breaking point.

When you think of the men or women who naturally come into your life, the ones who have the same interests and world view as you, are you attracted to them? The girls or guys who you know you could get, and just be with, just by turning round and saying you wanted them, are they the sort of person you want? Are they the sort of person you want to be? If you're honest with yourself, you'll probably realise that the things you don't like about them are the things you don't like about yourself. So you reject that person and look for the qualities you want to see in yourself, in someone else.

If you like yourself, you will like the people you naturally meet, and they will like you. If you don't like yourself, you will waste energy trying to get with people who aren't like you, or you will settle for being with someone you don't like.

There are two solutions to this. The first, and most important, is to learn to like yourself. The second, is to turn yourself into the person that you want to be.

If you want to like yourself, one way to do it is to realise that you are the perfect You that anyone could be. No-one else can do the things you do quite like you. No-one sees the world quite the same way. No-one has precisely your talents, ambitions, or lack thereof. No-one screws things up the same way, no-one makes the same mistakes and faux pas'. At being you, for all your faults and weaknesses, you would get an A+. It's ok to be the way you are - it must be, because the way you are IS the way you are.

Once you adopt this philosophy or one like it with regard to yourself, you will start seeing others the same way. The truth is, you probably are attracted to the opposite sex equivalent of you, it's just you're also turned off to them, for the same reasons you're turned off from yourself. Accept yourself, and you will accept them.

Many people think that their drive to improve themselves stems from the things they don't like about themselves. Feelings of inadequacy, dissatisfaction, or just dislike and hatred for yourself actually won't change, no matter how much you improve yourself. It is the feeling that needs to be dealt with, not whichever reason you rationalise at the time for feeling it.

It's actually easier to change and improve yourself once you accept yourself. The same negative feelings of self-non-acceptance lock us in to being those things that we want to change. Change the feeling first, and the specific details will sort themselves out.

Look at the sort of person you want to get together with. You can become the sort of person who they would want to be with, assuming that you're not already. If the person they want to be with, is the sort of person that you don't like, then you'll have to let go of those feelings, because those feelings keep you from being like them.

Take the school computer nerd, who wants to get with the cheerleader. But the cheerleader likes the football players. She's physically active, she parties a lot, and is confident in herself. So she looks for guys who are physically active, party a lot, and are confident in themselves. It makes no sense that she would want to be with a guy who locks himself in his bedroom, is anti-social, and can't look her in the eye when he speaks.

So to get the girl, the nerd must become the football player. He can still play to his strengths with computers, and he needn't play football. But he needs to adopt their way of being in terms of inward qualities. If he is truly attracted to the cheerleader, then he wants those qualities for himself anyway, and he dislikes the contradicting qualities he already possesses.

The nerd that truly doesn't want to become the football player doesn't truly want the cheerleader. He wants the bookish girl who is already on his wavelength. Either way, the solution is rooted in self-acceptance. If he accepts himself, he will accept the bookish girl. If once he accepts himself, he finds that he wants to become a footballer, he can have the cheerleader too.

Once you accept yourself you will realise your true motives for wanting someone you can't have. If you want to be with them to compensate for your own shortcomings, you will no longer want them. If you want them because you want to be like their ideal partner, then you will become that person. So there is never a need to change yourself for someone else.

Accept yourself, and you will like the potential partners you can get.

Improve yourself, and you will get the partner you want.


Link: "You Must First Love Yourself"

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tiba3 aku terjaga dari tidur..

berpeluh3..panas gile malam ni...tgh tido pon boleh berpeluh mcm berlari?? memang kritikal keadaan ini...

aku bangun dan terfikirkan kerja2 design aku yg masih belum disiapkan...risau..pening...macam2 aku pk...

ape yg sdang berlaku pada diri aku ni? wat i want in my life?
memang ade sesuatu yang tak kena...

tibe2 aku teringat studio life aku mase kat uitm...
sesungguhnya apa yg berlaku sekarang byk berbeza dengan keadaan dulu...

aku masih tak dpt nk sesuaikan diri sebenarnye dgn cara pembelajaran di MSU...design life in MSU and UiTM is totaly different...sekarang baru aku sedar akan keadaan ini...

dulu di uitm, student di beri masa smpai ujung semester utk siapkan semua design work diorg..tapi di MSU tak mcm tu...abes exam je maka habisla semester tersebut...

keadaan ini memang agak membuatkan aku pening..utk mengubah keadaan dulu kepada keadaan sekarang mmg susah... cara aku berkerja dulu dengan sekarang pon berbeza...

dulu kat uitm, kitorang akan ade review session..dimana student akan kumpulkan semua work diorng utk semester tersbut utk di buat exhibition..tapi kat MSu takde langsung..mcm tak bergune je artwork yg korang buat cantik3..no value???

dulu kat uitm memang boleh dikatakan xdelife sebab org cuti semester pon kitorng tak cuti menyiapkan kerja2..kami diberikan masa yg byk utk menyiapkan artwork...smpai dah abes exam pon still bleh buat lagi kerja..2minggu lepas exam baru anta semua projek...

kat msu tak macam tu...artwork di buat semata2 utk habiskan silibus subjek tersebut..habis je semester tersebut, maka habislah artwork korang...ooowh no..dis is not my life!!!

setiap artwork atau design yg aku buat adalah jiwa aku..value pada diri aku..bukan semata2 hantar utk memuaskan hati lecturer atau dapat markah...kadang2 lecturer di MSU tak paham benda tu..walaupon diorng sendiri graduate dari uitm?? tapi nk buat macam mane kan..mcm yg aku ckp,..design education kat sini tak sama di uitm...mungkin agak ketinggalan..

tiba2 aku rase sedih pulak...adakah aku berada di MSU satu kesilapan???....

aku bukan mencari alasan..tetapi ini apa yg aku rasakan sekarang...dulu di uitm kami punya motivasi yg tinggi utk menyiapkan setiap kerja yg diberi oleh lecturer..kenapa?? kerana kami berkerja bersama2 di studio...studio is a life...makan kat situ...tido kat situ...memerah otak kat situ..semuala kat situ..smpai tahap aku pernah sebulan tak balik umah sebab buat kerja kat studio...

tiba2 aku rase semangat aku jatuh..sejak aku kat MSu ni sebenarnye xde ape yg memberi aku semangat utk membuat kerja design aku...aku bukannye suke nk buat kerja last minute..tapi mmg aku perlukan org utk push aku...yes..i really need someone...takde sape pon sebenrnye yg amik tahu pasal pelajaran aku...oowh..aku baru sedar benda ni...

aduhai..sedih plak rase....baru aku teringat...dulu arwah mak yg byk ingatkan aku...belajar elok3...slalu ingatkan aku..tanye pasal pelajaran aku....now...xde sape pon amik tau kot....patutla aku rase mcm xde semangat nk buat kerja...sedar2 je dah masuk ujung semester...patutla aku rase sedih gile...patutla result aku utk smester lepas pon jatuh sket...walaupon 3 pointer jugak...tapi jatuh la sket dari semester satu....hmmmm...

oowh..tibe2 terEmo plak pagi2 ni...takpela...
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biarkan aku terus berfikir..berfikir utk mencari jalan penyelesaian...i need a new motivation...please2...i hope i can always motivate my self...please ya ALLAH..help me....


yaAllah..berikan aku kekuatan...blogger-emoticon.blogspot.comaku sgt sedih sekarang ni...tibe2 rindu plak kat mak...

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just to share: some of my work in UiTM..

YES: i'm do it..with my heart...with all my time in STUDIO..